Living My Dream

Jul 5, 2012 - Great Day!!!

Today was good! I went back to the doctors to get my stitches out and have follow up appointments. The doctor took me off steroids so I'll be less wired and finally able to sleep. Being off all these meds is the best news ever. It is helping me feel myself. My biggest issue is learning to walk again and have balance. It will take time. I'm operating on one balance nerve now and my body has to relearn to do basic stuff. I'm too independent and confident to accept using a cane. So I wobble along almost falling scaring everyone around me! Hopefully time will fix this and physical therapy if needed. Otherwise I will not be able to... Read more →

Happy Fourth of July!

Today is the fourth, but it sure doesn't feel like it! It's been my worst day dizzy/vertigo and feeling sick wise. And I'm getting a little weary of laying down flat. I made it to the family room couch to watch TV for five mins! I feel so bad for my poor bored family. The life of the party has lost her light! I showered and washed my hair this morning! And Tom drove me to the bagel store and I felt and looked human for thirty mins. See pic below! I need some daily rituals back to feel more alive. We just found out that there will be fire works at the St. Regis tonight! That means my bedroom... Read more →

Lovely Tuesday

Good good day. Worried it was so good that I'm scared to say it! I keep thinking I might have a mood swing like I did last night and get depressed and scared! Today was good because I finally realized how good my surgery went. It really couldn't have gone any better. I know gods hands were involved and I just feel so grateful. I got in the ANA website today and read a few stories from those that have recently under gone the surgery and I am so blessed. My face is fine, my taste is fine, my eyes aren't dry, my hearing appears to be intact. Things could NOT have gone better! And I'm so very thankful for... Read more →

Jul 2, 2012

So today I got to come home. Thank goodness. And since I've come home I hit a very happy high and now a very scary low. Thank goodness the bachelorette starts soon! The girls made me this adorable wall hanging with crayons and a cute banner over my bed. Clean sheets draped my new tempurpedic and I sunk in with full joy. Well, first I took a shower and combed through my mattes which resulted in losing half of the hair I had left. I haven't looked in the mirror to check coverage and I don't even care at this point. Humility has been fully realized. I got a diet coke and a bagel and thought life was perfect. Oh,... Read more →

All sense of vanity has escaped my body

Breakfast: 10 horse pills, two gummy fiber chews, activa, 1/2 an extra fiber English muffin 10:00 walk around the hospital halls contemplating escape route 12:00 lunch arrives and goes uneaten Afternoon: snooze, tv, snooze, take a few self photos, snooze - mayzie would like this life Dinner: again, goes uneaten while Tom tries to force some more activa and fifunicularnies down me 9:00 bed time. Lots of pills, so much pain, blood pressure nurses hourly, night time sweats, leg booties vibrating, can't sleep, horrid nightmares (last night my children were spewing grape goo all over me while I drowned in it), depression, prayer, sad for my brother cause he endured this for so long, want to go home 6:00 morning... Read more →