I have purchased a new bed and new bedding. I bought myself two new robes and nightgowns. I have an apt to have my hair colored. I'm getting my carpets cleaned. I bought some new sketch books and markers and they are all organized next to my new bed. I'm almost ready with ten days to go! So what to do with my extra time? I am working hard on cleaning my house. Every single nook and cranny!
It makes NO sense to be doing the things I am doing such as filing that had piled up for the past eight years. I guess you would call this nesting. I should be out walking the dogs and spending time with my kids. But no, I'm obsessed with having my life in total order before the surgery.
This was bed delivery day before the bed was made up for sleeping in. But Mayzie wanted to try it out.
Here is Annabelle on the counter in Macy's taking a little rest while we are buying our bedding! (yes, I take her everywhere with me!)
I heard this scripture at church on Sunday and it really spoke to me and has helped me through this time, so I thought I would share it:
I also really like this one from Phillipeans that was sent to me by a good friend. I will have to doodle it soon!
And with that, I will publically admit that I am scared to death. Some days it seems real and I have a lot of anxiety. Other days I can't comprehend it all so I feel fine (denial). But over all, I'm a bit of a mess as I anticipate what is going to come after my ten day countdown. I am looking very forward to when I am home sleeping in my new bed and the worst is behind me!
I hope you are all having a great week and thanks for coming to visit me. Suzy
i will be thinking of you the whole time sweet girl. just know my thoughts, prayers and a piece of my heart is with you :) (said with no snarkiness whatsoever, see i can be nice, too :) :) )
Posted by: karen | June 14, 2012 at 02:13 PM
You're in my thoughts and prayers and if I were you I'd be scared too! I like the nesting idea and think how nice it will be to have all of this done so afterwards you can spend all summer recuperating and spending time with your kids and adorable dogs!
Posted by: Brenda | June 14, 2012 at 05:10 PM
Of course you're scared. I'd be concerned if you weren't. Your thoughts and prayers (and doodling) are all directed where they need to be. Will be sending good thoughts and prayers for you and your family.
Posted by: Sandra A | June 14, 2012 at 06:52 PM
I'm thinking of you! Good thing you are prepared! :) YOU can do this!
Posted by: Diana Waite | June 14, 2012 at 08:15 PM
Your artwork is amazing.....I would like to read about your recovery....You have such a happy spirit and good outlook, I know you will come out of this with those same great qualities. Godspeed and blessings.
Cheri H.
Posted by: Cheri H. | June 14, 2012 at 10:43 PM
Oooh that bed needs jumping on! Did you do it already when Tom wasn't looking??? :)
You & I have CHA to plan for, so no moping now!!
WUV you! xx
Posted by: Kim Watson | June 15, 2012 at 12:54 AM
Do what you need to do to feel prepared! Thanks for sharing the verses that are carrying you through this.
Posted by: Miriam Prantner | June 15, 2012 at 06:28 AM
Suzy reading this post made me get all choked up. First of all, you are SO amazingly brave. I was a complete wreck before my knee replacement and I didn't have half the faith you do. I love your new bed and how cute Mayzie looks there. I love that you are faithful enough to find peace during turmoil. The scripture in Philippians is my favorite and has been for years. Nesting prior to being layed up is totally normal. Some of your most cherished memories with your family will come after surgery when all you can do is be together in your bed just being together. I love you sister and only wish I could be there. I am so proud of you for being such a strong person and great example to others. Today you have lifted my spirits. Liz
Posted by: Liz Elliott | June 15, 2012 at 08:05 AM
Billy says hi and hopes that your surgery goes well :D
Posted by: Liz Elliott | June 15, 2012 at 08:08 AM
I have not been reading my favorite blogs as much lately so I was shocked to read about your upcoming surgery. I feel I know the people whom I follow through their blogs, even though I don't really, but as part of the human family, I'll be thinking and praying for you to get through this foggy and rainy journey to find a rainbow at the end.
Posted by: Jeannine H | June 16, 2012 at 05:25 AM
stay strong suzy! it will all be fine.
Posted by: Mandy Szeto | June 16, 2012 at 08:19 AM
Your're in my thoughts and prayers Suzy :)
Posted by: Mary Ann Jenkins | June 16, 2012 at 08:59 PM
Both you and your family remain in my thoughts and prayers! :o)
Posted by: Little Lisa Marie | June 16, 2012 at 09:06 PM
posting hugs and prayers for you Suzy, prayers for strength and healing! Your blog has moved me so much. I have faith our Heavenly Father will be by your side every step of the way. God bless you!
Posted by: Yvonne | June 17, 2012 at 12:12 AM
Thinking of you and praying for a full and speedy recovery!
Posted by: Melissa | June 17, 2012 at 03:01 PM
(((hugs))) I am praying for you. Becca
Posted by: Becca | June 17, 2012 at 03:11 PM
My thoughts and prayers are with you, Suzy! Saying prayers for all of the medical personnel as well.
Posted by: Staci | June 17, 2012 at 03:14 PM
Many good thoughts and hugs to you. I read about you on 2Peas and wanted to let you know that I wish you the very best. And I have enjoyed your work so much over the years. Maria
Posted by: Maria Simms | June 17, 2012 at 03:30 PM
Came over from 2 peas to say I'll be keeping you in my thoughts!
Posted by: Cindy | June 17, 2012 at 03:33 PM
Suzy, I want you to know that I have been your fan forever. I am praying for you. I know that everything is going to be perfect with you in that operation because the Ancient One, the amazing One, the Creator will be with you on that day and He will take good care of you. I pray that the Lord open up the eyes and minds of these doctors and that they are led by Him who knows it all, He that heals us.
Isaiah 41:13 says "For I am the Lord, your God, who takes hold of your right hand and tells you, do not fear, I will help you." Have your right hand open to Him that day, ask Him to hold it for you. Have the faith of a prophet, you WILL be perfectly fine, and you WILL conquer this operation because you HAVE God with you and He promises that He will never leave you nor forsake you. Everything is for a reason, to learn things, to grow our faith, to get closer to Him, to learn to put Him first above everything, etc... we do not know why all these things happen to us but we DO know that He is in control of everything. Give it all to Jesus, give it all to Him and watch Him make a miracle that day.
I will be praying for you and I will also be waiting for an amazing and wonderful news.
Jesus loves you, never doubt that, He loves you. If you ever doubt, look at the cross.
Sending all God's blessings upon you and your family and let Him reign in your life, mind, soul, heart forever.
God bless you,
Dayami :)
Posted by: Dayami Lauzurique | June 17, 2012 at 03:42 PM
My thought and prayers will be with you!
Posted by: madeline | June 17, 2012 at 04:01 PM
I am praying for your peace and successful surgery and complete recovery.
Posted by: Joscie | June 17, 2012 at 05:51 PM
(((HUGS))) Prayers sent up!
Posted by: Pamela K. | June 17, 2012 at 06:58 PM
I am sending you lots of prayers and healing thoughts.
Posted by: marianne b | June 17, 2012 at 08:10 PM
Suzy you are in my thoughts and prayers! I will be following your blog now in my "reader". Up till now I have seen your Projects on the Studio blog. Good luck!
Posted by: Ann Marie Robalik | June 17, 2012 at 08:23 PM